A She With A Pen

 not everything cold is ill at ease not every wind  blemishes the buds some bloom amidst the snowy lanes,  into tiny little snow flowers.

While gazing through the window rails trying to catch the incandescent moon and its soft light coming into my room as if, I felt like it was aiming for me to embrace my nose and toes. I close my eyes and think of you. I could see flashing memories, a small girl in her midi skirt within fair large eyes getting ready to go somewhere. Too much pleasant. I suddenly open my eyes and switch off the alarm. It's already 5 o'clock in the morning and Ammamma and ammappa, I am writing this letter with such a bunch of beautiful memories trying to recollect at my desk and pen down. A very bleak memory of me coming every year from Lucknow to meet you. Obviously, every time I thought we were coming to you forever. I remember telling my friends that I am shifting to Kerala and then the most awaited part of the year comes, the small girl with cute little star buns in her midi skirt holding fast to her mother's hands and suppling her pinky fingers to her brothers. Oh God, I couldn't wait...

 Well, these are the words I've practised to write while learning calligraphy (still learning).  In fact the most needed affirmations for my life. I often tend to worry and get upset if one or the other things go wrong, even if it's the score of my usual class tests or random scoldings by my parents. At the first place, when I'm done with the drama I try to sort out things so that I don't worry over, again and again thereby, having pleasant mental health, 'cause if one keeps on thinking all the negative stuff happened/about them there's a high chance for getting dubious about oneself. And some act very different. It's high time to make yourself happy 'cause you know what will make you one. So, this is a slight reminder to myself to stay happy and rigid. What's your first affirmation? Moving on! the next thing up there is read.  I've been an avid reader till my 8th grade but it was such a drastic change that, one day I discovered myself not readi...

Its been since a long time I've written anything over here. Piles of work, exams and stress just blew my mind. There were several buffer days during which I couldn't think and do of anything. The long travel, late-night studies and sleeplessness was everything I faced during the last few weeks. It was hard to wake up and even harder to push myself to actually do something without being an irritant. I thought what a terrible start was 2021 without even thinking of the good things that actually happened to me during the beginning days of 2021. It took a couple of days to recover mentally and physically and I'm quite doing alright. Well, i owe a great thanks to my friends for constantly checking me, if I'm alright or not.  The one thing I learnt is not to switch between or doubt your decisions. Everything will only work out if you've given enough thought and work towards it. And also I trust his plans. It's not right or left, just move forward. Spend quality time w...